Me bitching about narcolepsy, Pt. 2

I fucking hate it. And have a bad ass case of insomnia just shits all over me. When I want to sleep, I can't. When I want to stay awake, i'm fucked. I don't know what i'm gonna do about it.

This is where i stand

I guess I have narcolepsy. Its ruining my life. Fuck doctors, they don't help. The only good thing about them is that they can give you medication. I have never been given the right medication, or the right dose. When ever the doctor gives me a prescription, it never works, and then i'm the one who has to figure out what i should add to it, and how much i should take.

Yes, its a horrible thing to do, and its gonna fuck me over in the end. i know. my entire family constantly reminds me of how bad this is. But what the fuck am i supposed to do?

This is one of those situations where a trip to the doctors office just makes things worse. Here are some examples from my personal experiences:
"Yeah, you have a problem, give me $1000 and come back in 6 weeks with another $1000"
"Here's a prescription for some drug, it might work, but I dunno"
"Wait, you have a sleep problem? Oh."


It's all a scam. My parents (the ones who pay my medical bills) are out thousands of dollars, and I'm stuck with millions of different pills. And  I still don't know what to do.